Thoughts of a messed up Christian saved by God's grace

Friday, August 18, 2017

Who told you to be offended?

   Social media and the news is flooding with us with reports about people tearing down Civil War monuments of those who fought on the wrong side in the Civil War. I can't scroll very far without running onto another news story or someone posting something about it, usually taking the side that we must tear these monuments down.

 I personally find it all insane. These monuments have been standing for years, and suddenly everyone is offended by them because it is politically correct to find them offensive. The media and liberals are telling everyone how evil they are, and how they must come down..... so like the good zombies people are, they are lining up and being offended because they are told they must be offended.

 On the humorous side, a friend posted this last night on Facebook: "Notice to all: please do not use the one, twenty, fifty or one hundred dollar bills as they have pictures of slave owners on them. Send them to me and I will dispose of them properly." She was joking, but it does raise a couple of interesting questions: is it any worse to have people who owned slaves on our money than it is to have a statue to someone who owned slaves and fought for the right to own them? And the second question: how long before these same people do go after our money and demand that Washington, Jefferson, and the others who owned slaves be taken off of our money? When will the insanity stop? Will they next go after Robert E Lee's house, which is a tourist attraction? Is it any worse to have a statue than to have his actual home?

 I honestly feel this is a non-issue. You cannot erase history. These men are as important to many in the South as Grant, Lincoln, and others are to we in the North. Should statues that offend a small group of people be taken down to appease those people? And why should one group of people be appeased and not others? What about the things that offend me? Am I less important than those offended by these monuments?

Abortion offends me

Cursing offends me

Lady Gaga offends me

Madonna offends me

People treating their dogs like babies offends me

Hillary Clinton, Obama, and Donald Trump offend me

Mornings offend me

I am offended that I have to ask for no mayonnaise and sour cream on thins that come with those

I am offended by women who show parts of their breasts in public

Smoking offends me

BLM offends me

People who want to legalize pot offend me

Rap music offends me.....it being called music offends me

  I could go on, but I don't want to sound as much of a weenie as the anti-monument people. But seriously people, when is it going to stop? It seems weekly there is something new to be offended by, and a push is made to remove it from public eye so someone doesn't get a butt hurt: the Confederate flag (I am tempted to fly one myself, I am so weary of that outrage), monuments, the 10 Commandments on government property, saying "Merry Christmas", and on and on.

 It seems to me that the majority of people being offended by these things are not offended until they are told they should be. Think about it: the media and liberals are usually the ones pushing this insanity. Over and over they say how offensive it is, and gullible people swallow it, get outraged, protest, destroy property, and demand that the offensive items be pulled from the public eye and history.

 Where will it end? I saw a news story where people want a statue of Theodore Roosevelt torn down because he supported slavery. Who and what will they go after next... Lincoln, Washington, Jefferson, Jesus Christ? What about we who are offended by Margaret Sanger, a woman who was pro-abortion so the black population could be thinned down.......yet is a heroine to liberals, and no one is demanding a bust of her be knocked down that is in the Smithsonian.

 Most of this all boils down to political correctness, and trying to appease a small portion of  the population who is suddenly offended with something that has been around for a long time.

   And don't get me wrong. There are things we should be offended and even outraged about. The murder of innocent babies should outrage us. Planned Parenthood making money off of killing babies and selling their body parts should outrage us. People twisting Scripture and telling gay people God is OK with them having sex with the same gender and they can be gay and Christian should offend us. Injustice should offend us.

   But we shouldn't be too easily offended about so much. Christians especially are not to take offense so easily, but those are parts of the Bible we tend to pass over and not observe. "Yes, but" has become a popular thing for us to say.

   Back to the monuments. The South has as much right to have monuments to their Civil War heroes  as we do in the North to the guys who were on our side. It is all part of history, and tearing down monuments will not change history, nor will it change any racism that still exists today.

 Let's stop being so easily offended, and let's definitely stop letting the media and liberals dictate to us what we must be offended by each day. It is just another way they are dividing Americans.

What's your total worth?

  "So, what is your total worth?" The cashier looked startled for a moment, then glanced down at her shirt where 6 or 7 different price tags resided. She laughed, and said "about $20." I smiled, and asked "is that all?" I walked out of the store with my purchases, still smiling and wondering why she had all of those price tags on her shirt.

   But the thought has stuck with me. What is our total worth? We tend to judge the worth of ourselves and everyone else by outward things. If people hold a steady job, have a nice family, a good marriage, go to church regularly, and are good people....they are worth more in our eyes than the drunk on the corner or the drug addict shooing up another fix.

  I often judge myself harshly and view my worth by a myriad of different things that won't matter in the end. For the last 9 years, I have been living with my parents with most of my things in storage. Most of the time, I didn't have a full time job that paid enough to get my own place, but in the last few years I have.... yet I couldn't seem to find a place. My self worth has been really low..... here I am a guy in my 40's, living with my parents, and having most of what I own in a storage unit. Shame has been a constant companion, and the whispers of "you're hopeless and worthless" play over and over in my brain like an annoying song you can't get out of your head.

 But now things are changing. If all goes well, I plan to move at the end of this month and rent a 3 bedroom house for a very reasonable amount. I am excited and a bit fearful. It has been 11 years since I lived on my own. Life is going to be totally different, and I'll have responsibilities that I haven't had for a while.

 The question arises now, will my worth change? No longer will I be so dependent on my parents. I'll have more bills to pay, all of the housecleaning and cooking will be up to me. I'll have my own yard to mow, my own driveway and walkway to shovel when the evil snow falls. I'll be able to get my books out of the plastic totes where they reside and put them on shelves... many of them for the first time. I can hook up my stereo, and take my CDs out of the crates they are in and put them on the CD racks that are currently in storage.

 I'll still be the same person, but I'll be on my own again..... so will my worth change? You know the answer. It will not. How I view my self worth will most likely change, but the way God views me and the truth of the matter is I am no less or more valuable having my own place or not.

 If we had price tags on us defining our self worth in our own eyes and the eyes of others, the numbers would all too often be in the negative amounts.

 Jesus died on the cross for the sins of the whole world. He viewed all of mankind as worth what He went through so we can have eternal life if we believe. He doesn't sit up there and put different price tags of what we are worth depending on our actions or our financial status in life. To Him, the drug addict or prostitute is worth as much as Mother Theresa or Billy Graham. God can save any of them, and use anyone as much as He has used the two I named.

 A Southern Gospel group I listen to recorded a song several years ago that goes like this:

I must be special, for He paid a special price for me
The One who had it all, gave His all when He died on Calvary
Some may think that I'm not much, but friend they just can't see
That I must be special for He paid a special price for me.


Monday, August 14, 2017

Being OK with hate

  Facebook and the news has been full of the events of the weekend in Charlottesville. Everyone is out in full force to condemn the white supremacists. And they should be. What bothers me though, is many condemning their hate, racism, and actions have no issue with the same when it comes from groups like black lives matters.

 I have paid attention since BLM came on the scene. I have watched them destroy property, cheer the deaths of police officers, threaten white people and say all sorts of mean and nasty things about whites......and they get defended. I have called them a hate group from the start, and am more convinced of it than ever. Anyone who disagrees is either deluded, not paying attention, or is politically motivated to ignore the bad.

 Is there racism against black people in our country? Yes, of course there is..... but not as much as the media, Obama, and BLM would lead us to believe. Obama went into office with a chip on his shoulder the size of Texas regarding white people. All during his presidency, he screamed racism as often as he could and got involved in as many white on black cases as he could.

 Case in point: Michael Brown. To this day, liberals and a lot of black people believe the false narrative that the police officer shot poor innocent Michael.... even though the evidence showed otherwise that Brown robbed a store, fought the cop for his gun, and charged the cop......but none of that matters. They insist Brown was wronged, and that event had a lot to do with the hate group Black Lives Matters being started.

 Around that same time, a white kid was shot by a black cop in similar circumstances.....and no one cared. No one destroyed buildings and shouted against black people......because it didn't fit the political agenda of Obama, Al Sharpton, Jesse Jackson, and the liberal media.

 I pay attention to the news, and there is a lot of hate and racism by blacks towards white people. Black people have made threats, called for killing white babies, and all whites. And the media is silent. They don't care about racism and hate aimed at white people, yet find racism and hate towards black people behind every bush and make it front page news.

 Here's the thing: You cannot condemn the white supremacists and support Black Lives Matters. They are two sides of the same coin. Both are guilty of hatred, bigotry, and racism. I read a blog post recently by a black man - read that again - a black man wrote it - and he strongly condemned Black Lives Matters and said a Christian cannot support them. Yet, many white people condemn you if you do not support them.

 I still despise everything about Donald Trump and believe conservatives and Christians in the Republican party lost their minds and morals when they nominated him for the GOP contender for president. I feel he divided the Republican party as Obama divided the country, and is a bully who has said a lot of mean and cruel things about people. That said, I don't believe the events of this weekend can be laid at his feet. He may have helped it along by his rhetoric, but those people were what they are long before he ran for president.

 If Donald Trump can be blamed for the events of this weekend, then Obama must be blamed for the hatred, destruction, and racism done by Black Lives Matters and other black people who are set against cops and white people. You cannot hold Trump guilty and give Obama a free pass for all of his hateful rhetoric, anti-Christian, anti-white, and anti-cop comments he made during his presidency.

 If Donald Trump can be condemned for not condemning the events of this weekend harshly enough, then Obama should be condemned for not condemning at all  the destruction, hatred, and racism from Black Lives Matters. ( And no, I am not defending DT. I still don't like him)

 The thing is, it is all about politics. There are people who defend the evil done and said by BLM, who are hotly condemning the white supremacists. And though I know of none personally, there are people condemning BLM who are OK with white supremacists and their actions and hate.

The truth of the matter is, we put blinders on and only care about the issues important to us. There are people condemning things Trump does that Obama did, and they were OK with it from him. There are people who condemned Obama for things they are OK with in Trump.

 As Christians, we should oppose all racism, not just what our political party tells us to oppose....whether it be against blacks, whites, Chinese, or martians. We should oppose destruction and hate speech from any group, not just ones we oppose because of politics.

 I firmly believe no true Christian should support Black Lives Matters OR the white supremacists. To support either, is to be OK with the hatred and racism of that group. And we should never, ever be OK with that.

 **And yes, I know there are likely some people in BLM with legitimate complaints and concerns, but they are drowned out by the voices of hate, racism, and those making insane demands that are special treatment, not equal treatment.

Friday, July 28, 2017

End of July musings

  I can't believe July is almost over, and along with it summer. I haven't blogged a lot again this month, mostly due to not having any blogging ideas. I do have a few things on my mind, so here is a hodge podge to end out the month.... unless I come up with something to write about in the next few days.

Transgenders in the military

    Anyone who knows me very well at all, knows that I am not a Trump fan. However, even a stopped clock is right twice a day. His proposed ban on transgenders in the military has liberals all up in arms as if he had just bombed half the country...... well, that may not upset them as much. Before the election, he was a proponent of people using whichever bathroom they wanted, and he also promised to further gay rights.... so I am not holding my breath that he will actually go through with the ban, but I hope he does.

   The whole transgender thing is getting out of hand. It is a mental illness to claim to be the opposite sex and to try to become the opposite sex. Transgenders are already more suicidal than the average person, but when they actually go through the process to attempt to be the opposite sex, their chances of suicide increase even more. And liberals want to put guns in the hands of these people and send them into combat?

 The military has strict standards in place, and they should not cave to transgender insanity and have these very deluded people in the military. They are to be pitied, but their delusions should not be encouraged.

Women and the "B-word"

  I really hate it when I hear a women refer to herself as a "b-word." It is so degrading, and I don't get why any woman would call herself one. Ironically, many of them would take offense to someone else calling themselves that. It is the same thing with black people calling themselves the "n-word", yet becoming enraged if a white person calls them that. No one should call themselves degrading names.

Charlie Gard

  Charlie Gard has died. The hatred being aimed at his parents for daring to want to save their baby is ridiculous. It is natural for parents to want their baby to live. It is unnatural to let them die, or go into a clinic and have them intentionally killed. It is sad the government interfered long enough to make saving him impossible.

Forgotten babies

  I saw an article shared on Facebook recently that had tips to help remember to get your baby out of the car. Why is this such a problem? I have been to a few Walmarts that have a sign by the door to remind people to get their babies/small child out of their vehicle. I don't mean to be crass or cruel, but what kind of person forgets a baby?

 This article I read suggested putting some item with the baby that you are not likely to forget.....so are they saying a cell phone or wallet is more important than a baby. If you're more likely to remember your phone or some other item instead of a baby, you need serious help. They even have an app to help you remember. Really?!


 I am still convinced Obamacare is a disaster. It was forced on us, and Obama had to twist arms, make deals, and who knows what else to even get enough Democrats to vote for it. Countless people have had their premiums skyrocket because of it. It has caused a lot more red tape for hospitals, doctor's offices, and even ambulance services. The very people who forced it on us don't want it for themselves, which says a lot.

 I am pretty upset with the Republicans promised to repeal it and de-fund Planned Parenthood, and they are doing neither. I am one of those convinced Obamacare may eventually fall apart without being repealed....we can only hope.

Chairs and the Babylon Bee

 The Babyon Bee is an awesome Christian satire site that comes up with some great fake Christian related news pieces. They did one last week about a church putting in massage chairs to draw more people in. I shared the article, stated that my church was putting chairs in instead of pews, that I was dead set against chairs, but might change my mind if we got massage chairs. I meant it as a joke, but it turned into quite the debate. People criticized me for having an opinion opposite what the church was doing, one woman ranted about how dare we want comfort in church instead of spending the money to help people, etc. I finally stopped reading comments.

 I took my 3 nieces out for lunch Tuesday, and my 17 year old niece brought it up. She said it was ridiculous the responses I got to what she knew was a joking comment. I'm glad someone realized the point of my post. Guess you have to be a teenager to get that it was a joke..........

My latest reading

 I have been reading a lot lately, and went through 11 books by the same author, Coleen Coble, in the space of 2 weeks. And I was reading other books also. In the last 3 weeks, I have read at least 20 books. That is close to a record for me, but I have read more than that in 3 weeks before.

   I recently reviewed a Love Inspired Suspense novel, and inside was a survey to fill out to get 2 free large print books. I did it, and they came this week. The print isn't that big, just slightly larger than the regular books. One of the books is part of a series done by multiple authors called "Classified K-9 Unit." It is about a team of FBI agents that all work with a dog. Even though I am not a dog lover, I am really liking this series. I am reading my second book in the series, though out of order, and ordered the rest of them. I don't read many of the Love Inspired Suspense, but mostly because there are so many of them I don't want to try to keep up.

A tale of two love interests

 Speaking of books I read lately, I had a disappointment in a book I just read. There is an author who wrote a great suspense trilogy that revolved around art theft, and a female FBI agent who works with art theft. All through the trilogy, she had 2 guys vying for her attention: her male FBI partner, and the superintendent of her apartment complex. Even though I am a guy.....yeah I know not a normal guy..... I found myself rooting for the one guy. (I won't say which one in case someone reads the books.) To my dismay, the heroine went for the opposite guy and married him at the end of the 3rd book. I commented on a post the author did about the book, and told her I loved the book and series, but was rooting for the other guy to get her. She thanked me and said she figured most of her readers were rooting for the guy who lost out. No offense author lady, but if you figured that, why didn't you make your readers happy and go with the other guy? See, a bachelor CAN be interested in romance.

The new bathrooms

 Even though I am against the chairs replacing our pews at church, and even though I don't think the addition to the sanctuary is necessary, one plus is the bathrooms were made bigger. We average around 230-250 most Sundays, and our bathrooms were way too small. The men's had one urinal and one toilet, and 2 sinks. I never was in the women's.....a good thing, but I think they had 2 toilets. We have other bathrooms downstairs, with the same set up. The new bathrooms are much bigger. From the pictures, it looks like there are 5 stalls in the women's now. I was in the men's, and I think there are 3 (or 2)  urinals and 3 stalls.... or something like that. Bigger bathrooms for a church our size were long overdue. And I think they are finally finished.

Urinal chat

 Speaking of urinals, some guys seem to find it necessary to chat with you when you're standing side by side taking a leak. I always find it awkward. Hopefully this doesn't become a thing with the new bathroom at church. At least if women do that, they have a stall separating them.

Cheap food

   We have some stores in my area called Ollie's Bargain Outlet. They sell a lot of returns from companies, and have some great deals on books. I bought a couple of snack foods there this week, and discovered why they were so cheap. Fail. The first was BBQ flavored pistachios in  the shell. I love pistachios, so I was intrigued. Unfortunately, the sauce or whatever they put on them made them near impossible to get out of the shells. They were practically glued in the shells.... and they didn't taste that great. Fortunately, I was only out 99 cents when I pitched them.

  Fail #2: There is a Mennonite run store near me that sells bulk foods, baked goods, cheese, meats, etc. They had peach salsa on sale, so I bought one.....it is OK, but I don't think I'll eat much of it. It is too sweet, and tastes too much like peaches.

 Fail 3: sweet chili flavored pretzel pieces. These also came from Ollie's Bargain Outlet. They aren't terrible, but they also aren't that great.

Car insurance

 I knew my car insurance premiums would go up because of my accident, but I wasn't prepared for how much. I went from $400 for 6 months to $840 for 6 months. I shopped around and managed to find insurance for $606 for 6 months. Still more, but not as bad.

XM radio and pushy people

 With my new car, I got 3 months free of XM radio and am loving it. We have it at home, so I already knew I'd like it. I was on my way home from work last week when a woman from XM called me. She said she was calling to see how I liked my free 3 months, but I correctly assumed there was more to the call. After I answered her question, she launched into telling me about this great deal they have for 6 months. She then said "OK, let's get you signed up for this deal while I have you on the phone...." A big pet peeve of mine is a salesperson who does this very thing. They just act like you are going to buy the deal instead of asking you if you are interested. That's a great way to chase me off, and that is what she did. I politely interrupted her (if you can politely interrupt someone) and told her I'd think about it. She assured me the deal might not exist if I called back, and I said that was OK, thanked her, and hung up. I really, really don't like pushy sales people.


 I just officially finished my 6th month of working for the hospital, which means I now have "paid time off". Instead of vacation days/hours, you accrue hours each week called paid time off, which can be used however and whenever you want. I have 81.19 hours, which is very cool. Unfortunately, we just did a 3 month schedule for my department, so it will be a while until I can use any of those hours for days off.

Favorite candy

 My best friend was giving me a hard time this evening by text because I didn't know his favorite candy....pear flavored jelly beans. He ordered 5 pounds of them. (Ugh) He said I evidently don't know him very well, so I asked him what my favorite candy is. He of course didn't know. :)


 This was one of those weeks that I worked Friday and have both Saturday and Sunday off. I work 1 Sunday a month, and every other Saturday. So now I am going to go enjoy my weekend. Til next time!

Monday, July 24, 2017

The "compassion" of liberals

Trey Pearsons

Yesterday I received an invitation to like the Facebook page of Trey Pearson. I have blogged about him a couple of times, but can't figure out why I got the invitation. Trey Pearson is a young man who was a Christian husband and singer dealing with same-sex attractions. After several years of fighting those attractions, he walked out on his marriage and pronounced himself a gay Christian. Sadly, many Christians are applauding his decision to leave his wife to live a sinful lifestyle while claiming to be a Christian.

Teen Vogue

   Teen Vogue Magazine has caused quite the splash with their recent article on teaching teens about anal sex. The editor responded to criticism with a picture of him kissing another man while holding his middle finger out at the camera. A few conservatives have posted reactions to the article by saying liberals want to destroy our kids. A woman commented on one such post and was trying to say liberals were coming at this story with compassion for kids who are bullied.

 Liberals have done away with sin, and try to make themselves all about tolerance and compassion.

Abortion must be easy and available so no young woman is stuck with an unwanted child.

People confused about their gender must be allowed to use the bathroom of their choice so they don't feel ostracized or out of place.

Gay people must be encouraged to pursue their sexual desires, and nothing should stand in the way of anything they want.

 In all three of these major liberal causes, they ignore the sin in their rush to make the sinner feel comfortable and not guilty for their sins.

They don't want the woman to believe she is actually murdering her baby.

They don't care about the countless women and children put at risk and made uncomfortable as men come in their bathrooms, locker rooms, and changing rooms.

They don't care about the rights and feelings of those having their rights and freedoms destroyed and their very livelihoods ruined in the name of gay rights. Nor do they seem to care about the risk of living a gay life.

   In the liberals' rush for compassion and tolerance, they are ultimately doing more harm than good.


  Many of the women who have an abortion will suffer guilt for years, if not for the rest of their lives. They are risking their lives by getting an abortion, and there are several studies linking breast cancer to abortion.... not that every woman who gets breast cancer has had an abortion. There are many men who have had to live with the reality that the mother of their child killed that child, and allowed him no choice in the matter. And the end result for these women if they do not repent, is judgment by God for killing their child.

 And then there is the baby. He or she didn't ask to be conceived, and they are murdered by the very one who should be offering them love and safety. They will never have the chance to live, to love, and to dream...... but they don't matter to liberals. All that matters is the mother's "right" to have that life snuffed out.


   It used to be people were encouraged to get help for mental disorders. Now they are encouraged to pursue the disorder, and anyone is a bigot who doesn't go along with it. I find the whole transgender issue sad and alarming. Though I have never  fit in with other males and felt more comfortable with females for most of my life, I have never wanted to be a woman. I can't imagine living with those feelings. I am of the belief  that you cannot change your gender. It is more than what you think and feel, and it is more than having the outward characteristics of a gender. God makes us either male or female, and no matter how many hormones one takes, or what is chopped off or added, the person remains the same gender.

 Studies have proven that people who actually go through with the surgeries and hormones to try to be the opposite sex are at a much higher risk of suicide. They find  that they are not any happier, and it makes them more suicidal. How much better to help the person change the inward to feel more like the outward, then to encourage a mental illness that butchers their body and puts them at a higher risk of killing themselves.


   It is becoming increasingly unpopular to stick with the Bible's (God's)  view on sexuality. To dare quote the Bible on gay issues gets you labeled a bigot and hateful....even if you yourself deal with same-sex attractions. Ironic, but it has happened to me.

   More and more Christians and churches are giving in and are accepting gay Christianity, and not calling homosexuality a sin anymore. Sadly, whatever the world deems as good and normal, the church eventually goes along with.

  It isn't easy being attracted to the same sex. It is far more difficult than anyone can imagine who does not struggle in that area. People don't understand you, it is lonely, and you're constantly hit with in your face temptations. You have the desire to love and be loved, and to marry..... but for many of us, that happening with the opposite sex is impossible, and it is sin to do it with the same sex.

   Liberals are intent on stamping out any hint of opposition to all things gay. A wealthy gay donor who has helped finance the push for gay rights is now saying they want to punish the evil people who stand in their way of getting everything they want. The ultimate goal of the most militant of gays is total acceptance by all, and no Christian daring to oppose them or say it is sin.

 I  believe 100% it is still a sin, and no one can be a gay Christian, as in someone having sex with the same gender. There are some using that label who are celibate, which I feel just confuses the issue. The Bible lumps homosexuality with a list of other sins that will put the person in hell for eternity that commit them. Liberals don't like that. They want to twist and ignore what the Bible says, and try to say that the Bible doesn't condemn loving gay relationships. In the name of love and compassion, they pat gay people on the back and tell them God is OK with them being gay, that they can pursue sex with the same gender and be Christian, and that the Bible doesn't really condemn homosexuality.

 Meanwhile, these loving and compassionate liberals are helping deceive gay people and push them towards a more dangerous lifestyle, and ultimately an eternity in hell.

   I have looked up the health statistics for gay men. They are at a much higher risk of STDs, AIDS, mental health issues, suicide, and also more in danger of abuse than their heterosexual counterparts. This is what liberals are pushing gay people towards. And by the way, the suicide part gets blamed on people opposing homosexuality, but the suicide rate among gay people is just as high in countries where there is little or no opposition.

  And then there is the end of life. Imagine being a liberal Christian standing before God as gay people you encouraged to pursue their desires are judged by the God who says the opposite of what you told them. On that day, no gay person is going to turn and thank those who patted them on the back and told them them they could be gay and Christian. They will curse those who helped push them toward an eternity without God.

   Conservative Biblical Christians need compassion also, but focused the right way. I grew up in a Christian school, Bible college, and a very conservative church. Had anyone found out about my sexuality in college, I would have been kicked out and never allowed to return. I sat in the church  pew, alone, hurting, and confused. I was terrified of anyone finding out. I had heard the comments, the jokes, the cruel things said about gay people. I knew if I was found out, it would most likely mean being ostracized, and no one would understand.

   Now that I have come forward and admitted my struggle, I have found it to not be that bad. No one does seem to understand, but I don't think I have been ostracized. I had one lady from church block me for talking about gay related issues too much, and another say to my opposition to Trump for his strip clubs and adultery that "with my background, I should be OK with it". Whatever that means. I really don't have any friends, at least none that I hang out with, but then I never did have that..... so if anyone is avoiding me because of my sexual struggles, I am not aware of it.

  About 8 years ago, my Sunday School class did a class on homosexuality. It was pretty bad. A couple of men made some very hateful comments, and I was fighting tears. Since then, it has been discussed a few times in that same class and the comments have all been compassionate and decent.... so maybe there are more people who get it than I thought.

 All of these individuals need love and compassion: the women killing their babies, the people wanting to be a different gender, and those attracted to the same sex and having sexual relations with the same sex. But our compassion needs to be Biblical compassion and love that does not put approval on sin, but a love and compassion that sees the sinner as a person loved by and in need of a Savior. The answer is not to pat them on the back and tell them they are OK the way they are, but neither is the answer to hate and alienate them from the church and from God.

 There is a common theme among conservatives and liberals with all things gay: both sides want to make it a special issue. No other sin is being paraded in the streets and forced on us. There is no other sin where they try to shut down all opposition and truth about. And yet, conservative Christians treat it like this horrible sin that is deserving of loathing, and those who are involved as hopeless child molesters.

 The answer lies somewhere in between those two extremes. True Christian love and compassion will never encourage people to stay in their sin while refusing to call it sin, but it will also see the gay person as a human loved by God and in need of love and friendship by them.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

The canceled lunch

  "Something came up and I can't make it tomorrow. Sorry, can we reschedule?" The text I received this evening wasn't really a surprise, but it still irritated me. To be honest, it hurt a little.

  I have this friend. I got to know her well at my last job. She has a long time boyfriend who she doesn't live with and has no intention of marrying. She is funny, and likes my whole family. Over the course of the last 6 years or so that I have known her, we have met for lunch several times, sometimes with another lady who we also worked with.

 And over the course of  the last few years, she has canceled lunches that she had set up. And her reasons always sound made up. One time her brother surprised her visiting from Florida, but a mutual friend knew he didn't visit.

 After not hearing from her for a few months, she called two nights ago and wanted to meet for lunch at a new Chinese restaurant tomorrow. I very loosely planned on it, and sure enough I got that text message this evening. This makes at least the 5th time this has happened. And it bothers me.

 To be honest and maybe a tad bit pathetic, there isn't a line of people at my door wanting to go out to lunch with me. The only people who have met me for lunch this year have been my nieces.... and my nephews, but I have to pick them up since they don't drive yet. At my age and being single, I really don't have a social life. Well, I don't have one at all if I am honest.

 What do you do with a friend like this? She is a pathological liar. I have known that for a long time. I hate to be rude and tell her I don't want to be friends anymore, but this canceling lunches is getting old. And I hate the fact that she lies so much.

 So now I have my day off empty again with no plans. Should I still drive the 35 minutes to Boardman, OH to try out this new Chinese restaurant and do a little shopping while there?

 Is it better to not have friends to do things with than to have friends who cancel with lousy excuses? And what do I do next time she wants to meet for lunch?

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

More July musings

  I really can't believe we are 18 days into July. It is true that the older you get, the faster time goes. Granted, I just had the last six days off, which went by way too fast......so that didn't help time go any slower.

Amish Country

  I took two days of my six days off and went to the Amish section of Ohio. I love it there. The pace seems a bit slower, and the Amish intrigue me. I wouldn't want to be one, but they intrigue me. I shopped a lot, bought some cheese, ate out a couple of good restaurants, tried a new pizza place, and just spent time hanging out in my motel room.

 I was amused when I stopped at a "huge book sale" at the home of some Amish. There wasn't anything of interest to me, and half of the books seemed to be cookbooks. What amused me though were a few of the Twilight books (vampire novels) and several Harlequin books. I wondered if the Amish people knew what the books are like. And the book sale wasn't as huge as advertised. I walked out without buying any books, or without seeing anyone.

Game of Thrones

  Game of Thrones is all the rage right now. I am guessing a new season of the TV show must have just started. I have never seen an episode, nor do I want to. From what I have read by people who have seen it, the show has a lot of sex and nudity in it, yet many Christians defend watching it. It "has a lot of great acting and plots in it". A few admit if you struggle with porn, you maybe shouldn't watch it...... as if those are the only people a show like that could cause problems with.

 I am of the mind and belief that no Christian should watch it. Entertainment has become such a god to us that most of us aren't careful enough with what we watch. A lot of entertainment consumed by Christians will never bring them close to God, and will most likely interfere with their relationship with God. It will also dull the senses and make the viewer used to more and more filth and immorality.

 I was raised in a church that believed you shouldn't watch TV or movies, and though I don't agree with that and am careful with what I do view, it does raise a valid point that we don't need to watch anything. Sure, it is entertaining and there is a lot of good out there to view, but if we get to the point that we defend and excuse watching lite porn like Game of Thrones, we'd be better off not watching anything. And it IS lite porn. For some reason, too many Christians seem to think everything is OK to watch as long as you can't see the penis and vagina, to be blunt. But porn is so much more than that.

 Author and pastor John Piper wrote an excellent piece in relation to this show: Twelve Questions to Ask Before You Watch Game of Thrones. He made some great points. And this is a serious thing. We aren't careful enough, nor do we consider Christ enough in these areas.

Trump's liars

  It is 8 months after the election, and I still haven't gotten over the things said to me, the so-called friends who said nasty and mean things to me because I felt I could not go against my conscience and vote the way they thought I should vote. I can't count the times I was told "if you aren't for Trump, you're for Hillary!" Or "A non vote for Trump is a vote for Hillary." Now the majority, if not all, of these people saying that KNEW I was against Hillary also.... yet they kept chirping those things. I have been thinking about it lately, and realize they all are liars and were bearing false witness against me. Sure, it was a tactic to try to guilt or force me to vote the way they wanted, but they knew what they were saying was not true. They knew I was against Hillary, and they knew that voting third party was not a vote for Hillary..... so they lied. But hey, since it was politics and for what they saw for the good of the country, it was OK.

Eugene Peterson

 Author of the paraphrase The Message and other Christian books, Eugene Peterson caused rumblings across Christendom last week when he said his views on homosexuality have changed, and he would marry a same-sex couple. He has since retracted his statement, either because of the backlash, or common sense took over again.

 The number of prominent Christians embracing the pro-gay theology is alarming, and it is becoming too accepted. Author Jen Hatmaker came out in support of gay marriage and homosexuality this past year, and Thomas Nelson is still publishing her books. I was disappointed to see her latest book listed in the books available for review from them. Isn't this big enough of a sin and issue to cause a Christian publisher to drop an author?

 I'm not saying a Christian has to throw out all of an author's books in a case like this, but to keep publishing and/or buying someone's books who is so blatantly going against Scripture....... it isn't like they disagree over baptism methods.

 I was working at the Christian Bookstore near me when a popular author came out and said she didn't believe in the Trinity. Thomas Nelson dropped her like a rock, yet here they are still publishing the pro-gay Jen Hatmaker's books. Go figure.

  I fear for the future of the Church. Too many Christians and churches are caving into the pressure and tossing out what the Bible says about this sin. I fear for the many souls who will go to an eternity in hell because Christians and/or a church told them they could be gay and Christian.

 By the way, his paraphrase may not be a bad Bible to have - I actually own a copy - but one needs to be careful with paraphrases, especially when done by one man.

Tattoos and gauges

 What is up with the fairly recent rage of tattoos? It isn't unusual to see people with their arms completely covered, and even with tattoos on their necks and faces. Sadly, Christians are following this fad. I know there is a verse tossed around to indicate Christians should not get tattoos, and I honestly don't know if that can be used or not.....but I don't know why any sane person would want to cover very much of their body with ink, much less someone who is professing to follow Jesus.

 Let's get real: A man that has very many tattoos looks like a thug gang member. Look at mug shots of gang members. They are covered in tattoos. And I find a woman that has many tattoos just looks trashy. We Christians shouldn't follow every fad of the world, nor should we do stuff to our bodies that make us look like freaks. What if tattoos, gauges, and multiple piercings hurts our Christian influence and witness?

 The hospital I work at cracked down on tattoos this year. It has been in their rules for some time that tattoos must be covered, but it wasn't enforced. However, they received so many complaints from patients and visitors, that they enforced the rule. There are still a lot of people who find tattoos offensive and are turned off by them, so why should a Christian do it? And if they do, do what the Bible says to do things in - moderation.

 I was browsing the music section at Lifeway Christian Bookstore last week, and was disgusted to see a CD cover of a Christian singer that had several tattoos and those nasty gauges in his ears. Note on those: If people with gauges decide they don't want to wear them anymore, it requires surgery to close the holes left. We aren't too far from the third world countries where they weight their ears to hang to their shoulders. Christians shouldn't look like freaks. If they must get tattoos, do it in moderation and where they can be covered. It can still hurt employment opportunities.


  I have been reading a lot more lately than I have been for a while. Due to my depression being bad, I was pretty much only reading books I had committed to review. It hasn't been too great lately, but for some reason I have been in the mood to read a lot. Last week, I read a 4 book series by Colleen Coble plus another of hers in another series. Yesterday I read two books by another author, and started a third book by her today. Maybe I'll hit my reading goal on Goodreads after all.


 Speaking of reading books, I read two books yesterday that had an impact on me: Thread of Deceit and Stranger In The Night, both by Catherine Palmer. Both books are Christian suspense, and the stories center on a Christian youth center where kids come and learn about God and also learn to live. The books left me wishing I could do something with my life that was worth something. I go to work, I enjoy my days off, I go to church and pretty much warm a pew....... but I don't do anything to make a difference. The guys in the books, though fictional, were giving all they had to reach kids for God. And I do nothing.

Lunch with a friend

  A friend of mine wants to meet me for lunch at a new Chinese place on Thursday. This friend is notorious for canceling lunches, usually with what sounds like a made up excuse.... so I am not holding my breath. Though I may try out the restaurant anyway.

The beach

  Lately I find myself wishing I was back at the beach. Why do vacations go so fast? Maybe I could move to a beach and open a small bookstore/coffee shop. That would be awesome indeed.